What do you want? And what do you need? I know motivation is a different thing but is there any one thing that can help you stabilise?

seeing how many people replied warms me also depressed heart.

I’m putting myself in they list of you want to chat. take care mate

I exercised for the first time in like 4 years today, 30 minutes on an elliptical machine, and I’m mad about it because i enjoyed it, and now I’m sore. I’m probably going to have a fantastic night of sleep because of it too.

grumbly curmudgeon noises

Coming to this fairly late, so I hope that means things have eased up for you.

But, fwiw, I’m happy when I see a post you’ve made, even one like this.

A few days ago I was sitting in a public park. There were no other people close to me in the park. The sun was shining in a mostly cloudless sky and some of the taller trees were casting shadows on the grass. A gust of wind would blow through and the sounds of all the leaves from the trees made that pleasant rushing sound before ebbing away with the retreat of the wind. The smell of Earth was strong, like freshly turned soil. There were birds and insects, unseen, but loudly calling to each other oblivious to me in the park with them. I heard a commotion from the underbrush not far away, and see three squirrels chattering and giving chase to one another. It was very pleasant!

I wish I could have packaged this moment in the park in a bottle and give it to you to experience right now. A bottle of peace and contentment, as long as you don’t mind the chatty squirrels.

I lived in a neighborhood that was not far off from some open nature (a lost deer was in the rose garden last month). I went through a period where I had a ton of close encounters with skunks. I mean, no one has been up close with skunks this much in a suburban area without getting sprayed.

Once, I rounded the corner of my house and was face to face with one heading the opposite direction. We both ran from each other. Another time, I was outside smoking in the narrow space between my place and a fence between me and the next building late at night. A skunk casually walked by me from behind me. I couldn’t believe it; the space was about two and a half feet and it was practiacally brushing my leg.

And there was the clan of skunks raiding a trash bin one time. And the skunk walking through a neighbor’s yard early morning. Just skunks all the time. That’s not even counting the almost-certainly-rabid skunk that chased me and a friend, snarling (we saw it out during daytime a day later, so for sure rabies, according to animal control).

I eventually started jingling my keys in my hand any time I was walking around after dusk. I haven’t run into a skunk since.

Hope you feel better.

Sorry to hear your feeling that way. I hope it’s not do something crazy level depression. I had a bout of that yesterday. I packed my bags told my family I was going to the laundry mat, actually did that, then drove 150 miles across my state to get a bottle of water and a Slim Jim. I was dead set on driving across the country but it was raining hard for hours. I stopped and spent 2 hours crying in a rest stop. I decided to turn around. Didn’t get home until 3 something this morning.

Hi! I saw your post about moderating and I think it’s cool that you decided to carry that community for everyone. Thanks for doing that!

I’ve been taking care of my ancient wizened pet rabbit. She’s like 90 in bunny years (considering large breeds like flemish giants don’t live as long) but here’s an old and young picture of her huge dumbo ears.

I go to a restaurant store for her because they sell giant bags of cilantro and she mows through it among other things.

I’ve also been running a tabletop rpg system I wrote and built a setting for, and it’s going pretty well! It’s kind of a science fantasy thing and players are all humans, but they can be terran or from a colony world we build out together. That entails negotiating what adaptations the colonists originally gave their children to thrive on that world and so we ended up with a huge strongman character from a hot high gravity world for example. He has heat venting scales that look like a bush viper all over him and he’s the only one enjoying the desert they’re currently traversing while I throw creatures at them like a tamer version of Scavenger’s Reign.

Also depressed, feel trapped by reality.

I’m lying in bed waiting for my partner to finish in the bathroom before we pass out together. It’s late.

Tomorrow someone is coming to pick up a washing machine I’m giving away. I hope they ask about the free fridge as well. I hope they’re not weird.

Fly halfway across the country in a couple days to our new digs. Looks boring af. I’ll have to go scouring the neighbourhood for props to lift so I can get some indoor plants going.

it was hot and humid overnight, the apartment was horrible… it’s raining now, but alas, the strong wind keeps me from opening the window in the bedroom for a fresh breeze, there’s too much rain coming in. but at least it is raining, I love the sound of the rain.

I’m laying in bed writing this and my voidfloof came to lay with me - I guess he isn’t bothered by my body heat lol

I’m sorry to hear you’re having a rough time today Lady. Depression sucks 🤍

Hopefully this pic of my parents’ floof monster will put a smile on your face!

Anything you want to discuss?

I feel you. I have been pretty low the last two weeks, but not low enough to go see my drs, yet. My kids are what keep me here. I feel bad saying that, and how other people could take that, but it’s what stops me.

I am a few months medicated now to manage my depression and AuDHD as a middle aged guy. Hyper focusing on my mental health is getting pretty draining and I’m agonising so much over the negative. I’ve found talking helps, but just struggling with the day to day work / life at the moment.

I’m terrified of having another breakdown and there are so many possibilities to process. Fuck my brain.

Saying that though, I’ve got to stop being so hard on myself too, and think of how far I have come over the last two years in this journey. I should be proud of the changes I’ve made in myself and the impact that has had on everyone around me.

I’m pretty sure I can do this, but then , the world is just fucking insane right now, who knows what the fuck this rollercoaster of life will throw at us tomorrow.

I hope you are ok friend. We need to look out for each other. I am trying.

Edit: On second thoughts, maybe detailing my own mental health wasn’t the distraction you were after? If then, sorry mate!

Bit over this cold weather though. Our houses in Aus are fucked. 21°C/10°C min/max the last few weeks, with periods of rain or just blue skies. Never been this fucking cold in my life. Maybe it’s my old age and the combo of loosing a bit of weight lately, fuck fuck, it’s cold. Wish my house was better insulated from the weather.

I hope it’s passed, and you are feeling better now. Elbow have a new album out, it’s pretty good. It finally started raining here, our dry season was too dry and it’s so good to have the rains most days now.