buying an XXL Chance with the flared head from Bad Dragon just to feel something

I bought two IEMs (one $200 and one $500) and a USB DAC/AMP for $100 and getting it all at once felt like Christmas. Haven’t felt like this in probably over a decade…

Regret? That is a choice…

This is so 2018-coded. This is because I was 20 then so I was just about having-money-coded, while still somewhat supported by parents so I wasn’t paycheck to paycheck coded yet.

I have the very funny and absurd notion that our feelings stem from the micro-organisms that are living in our intestines. Very many micro-organisms live there indeed! The numbers must be in the billions; anyways, it’s uncountable amounts.

I hold the irrational but beautiful view that it is the livelihood of these microorganisms that gives us our vivid behaviour; and without these we fall into the feeling of empty-ness, which is also often called depression and makes us feel without life or motivation.

Interestingly enough i hold the view that these microorganisms need a lot of space to develop properly, similar to how the insect needs a vast field, not only a tiny hole-in-the-ground to breed and produce the next generation. It is therefore important that microorganisms are exchanged between humans frequently, because without such they eventually fall stale. However, these microorganisms are exchanged through sexual acts (body contact), and considering how rare physical contact has become among people, especially young people, these days, it shows how depression is so wide-spread among young people today.