• ChexMax@lemmy.world
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      Even if something tickles my brain it still doesn’t become a habit. I genuinely don’t think, in my 30s, with dozens of daily systems and all things considered a damn organized life, that I have a single habit. Everything I do is painstaking. Everything is conscious thought. I do laundry every single day and I have to think through the steps. Brushing my teeth is a slog. Figuring out what to eat is so difficult I often skip it despite just eating the same things over and over. If I don’t set alarms, I will forget to feed my kid. Alarms for vitamins that I’m not allowed to dismiss until the vitamin is swallowed. I am struggling to think of a single thing that is automatic. I have to think about opening the blinds every day. I have to think about turning off the lights at night (I think about the consequences of leaving them on to decide which lights I leave on. Every night). Nothing happens out of habit.

      • Whats_your_reasoning@lemmy.world
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        This, 100%.

        It’s funny, after I read your comment I tried to think if anything I do is purely out of habit, rather than a deliberate choice. I thought, “Falling asleep?” at first, but then remembered my insomnia. Hell, it’s 4:15am right now.

        I can’t even sleep overnight “out of habit.”