Wtf? So I wanna kill myself but at the same time am scared of death?
What the fuck is this brain doing?
My brain is so fucking stupid.
How does this even make sense in evolution?
I don’t even know what I’m doing, the only things keeping me alive is my survival instict that overrides my suicidal thoughts.
Life literally makes zero sense.
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I don’t know that I’ve ever truly wanted to die, but I have frequently wanted to never have lived. That, to me at least, is the difference. And knowing I can’t accomplish the latter no matter what I do I think has somehow stopped me from pursuing the former.
Not that any of this helps. But I think I can relate.