Ms. ArmoredThirteen

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Cake day: June 1st, 2023

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  • I’m reminded of the game Black and White where you have an avatar/pet that you can train to behave in certain ways. You can do positive reinforcement like giving scritches and whatnot when they do something you want, or negative reinforcement which is effectively a “backhanding the shit out of an anthropomorphic pet” simulator. If they are holding something and you rub their belly they will eat what they’re holding. To train mine not to eat villagers I would hand them one, rub it’s belly, wait for the villager to be eaten, then beat them to a pulp. Usually once was enough but sometimes they’d need a second round












  • So maybe not exactly a success story but I wouldn’t call it a disaster either. I don’t view my current experience to be negative even if it is extremely difficult for me.

    I’m poly, technically have been most my life but most my relationships have been functionally mono until 3 or 4 years ago. I’m in a hard place right now, 6 months ago my polycule split, two months ago my anchor partner very suddenly broke up with me, my nesting partner of over 10 years has stopped physically interacting with me.

    I thought I was insulated from heartbreak because I could fallback on other partners while I get back on my feet, and I did actually do that a couple times with non core partner breakups. Apparently the opposite can happen where all your partners drop away in rapid succession and you have to deal losing all the people who would have supported you.

    I’m happy I’m poly. It is difficult but so is being mono in different ways. The love I had when the polycule was functioning I can’t describe that to people who haven’t had it before. I had a great run of about 3 years of memories I’m going to hold very dearly. I’ll rebuild my relationships with new people and everything I’ve learned here will make things better for me in the future.