Riley entered my life in 2008. I still remember that day. I found her on Craigslist, paid a $60 “rehoming fee”, and she sat on my lap as I drove home with my new puppy. I was young and broke, living alone, and could barely afford my bills. It was an irresponsible decision to get a dog at that point in life, but I’m so glad that I was able to make it work.

She was a mix of two retrievers: Her mother was a chocolate lab and her father was a golden retriever. Somehow all of their puppies were black.

I had some experience with dogs before her, but I did not know about the amount of affection that retrievers are capable of. As I was getting to know her, I was pleasantly surprised to learn that she loved hugs so much, she even initiated them! Literally the sweetest dog I’ve ever met.

She was very smart. I was able to teach her most of her tricks in like ~10 mins each, while heating up frozen pizzas or whatever cheap garbage I ate back then.

She was the most consistent part of my bumpy path in life. She has been with me through tough breakups, my parents’ deaths, career changes, and many other ups and downs that come with adulthood.

She’s also the oldest retriever I’ve ever met. She would have been 17 years old next week.

We were together until her last breath. With my hand on her chest, I felt her final heartbeat.

And I will remember her until mine.

Riley was such a good girl.

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    I love reading these stories but I cry every fucking time. My two dogs passed away two years ago (black lab 13) and last year (blue nose pit 12.5). Both the goodest of boys in their own ways. I remeber their last heart beat too and will forever love them.

    Glad Riley was with you for so long. Dogs are the fucking best and we don’t deserve them.

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    100% of posts like this never fail to break my heart. It takes me back to the day I lost my girl. I’m so sorry for your loss. There’s no feeling quite like this. I may not know you, but you aren’t a stranger. They say grief is just love with nowhere to go. What helped me was remembering how lucky I was for all those years.

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      Thank you. I think about that a lot too. She lived so much longer than I could have expected, and I’m grateful for those extra “bonus years” 🖤

      I’m sorry for your loss too.

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    And I will remember her until mine

    It was at this point, that I broke and had a little cry.

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    I am so sorry for your loss. I know unfortunately how it is to lose your best furry friend…

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    I lost my Chessie in April at age 12. We picked her up from the breeder when she was 6 weeks old and I held her as she died.

    I had a dream a few nights ago that we were walking in the forest and she had a stick she’d keep bringing back and looking at me with those eyes that say “throw the damn stick, buddy, you know how this works”. Then I got to sit with her and run my fingers through the curls on her neck and woke up crying.

    I’m so sorry for you, it’s hard to lose someone that would have laid their life down for you.

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      Aw what a beautiful dream. I really appreciate those dreams with lost loved ones. It’s the only way to form new memories with them, so they’re worth the tears, IMO.

      I’m sorry for your loss. Chessie must have been a great dog.

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    I’m so sorry for your loss. She sounds like she was the sweetest.

    Thinking of Riley tonight.

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    Sorry for your loss. Losing a dear dog is the hardest. I hope you remember all of the good you brought each other. Made me cry.

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      Thank you 🖤 Yeah I’ve been scrolling through photos since I posted this, and many of them made me smile.

      Here’s a random one of her being a goofball.

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    That’s a long time. I know it’s raw and too real. I’m sorry for your loss.

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    RIP Riley. I’m sorry for your loss, OP.

    It sounds like you two were blessed to have one another and you developed some beautiful memories.

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    Retrievers are god’s gift to this world. They’re just some kind of love, and I am sorry you lost yours tonight. Sounds like she loved you so much, she wanted to stay with you as long as she could. I bet you she was a sweet bug the whole way through. It’s really special you got to spend all the time with her. Got me tearing up over here. I hope you’ve got someone/thing/folks to look out for you. I hope you get a chance to mourn like the dead deserve. I hope you find happiness in the little things you loved the most about her. Allow yourself space to honor your emotions. My gal likes to think they’re just waiting for us, and I can tell you I’ve had moments where I’ve felt like the little buggers are still around.

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      Thank you. This is rough, but I’m so grateful to have had 17 years with mine. She gave me so much more than I ever could have expected.

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        Of course, I completely understand. Mourn well, take care of yourself and remember they always live on in our hearts and our stories!