• kboy101222@lemm.ee
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    7 months ago

    They gave me ketamine the last time I was in the hospital for pain so they could knock me out.

    It was the single worst experience of my life, even worse than the injury I was being knocked out for. I was semi conscious the entire time, but I couldn’t feel or hear anything. I just knew people were all around me doing something. It feels like I was dead for a while. I have very few memories from the time they first gave it to me in the ambulance to the time I woke up at home the next day.

    Fucking awful experience all around. Next time I was in the hospital for an unrelated condition I told them I’d rather have zero pain medicine than even a tiny amount of ketamine

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        7 months ago

        They gave me low dose in the ambulance. While it was a decent high, I still had the same memory issues (which I always have while high, but at least I can normally remember something)

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            7 months ago

            Good to know, especially since the ambulance really didn’t give me much.

            I’m still gonna pass on it though cause that was such an awful experience and I’d much rather just take an edible

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      7 months ago

      I don’t understand why this is bad?

      I’m reading this like you’re unhappy you don’t remember the pain? And you want pain?

      Or is this sarcasm?

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        7 months ago

        No, it’s basically an entire day of my life that I know happened but I can’t remember any specific details of. I know I went through insane amounts of physical and emotional trauma (I laid there in pain for no less than 8 hours because it was literally the same week COVID started), and not being able to remember it at all is preventing me from moving on or healing.

        Idk if it’s just a me thing, but I hate not remembering entire large sections of time. After the first time I got black out drunk I didn’t drink alcohol for almost 2 years

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      7 months ago

      Do you know why they gave you ketamine instead of something more standard like morphine?

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        7 months ago

        Absolutely no idea. The other hospital I mentioned was confused as to why they did it as well.