Hello, I suffer from strong depression. Every time someone online says something mean to me it extremely hurts my feelings and it triggers this extremely strong depression in me.
It just happened again and the depression is so strong that I have barely any energy and it’s very hard to write this. First it always feels like a strong overwhelming shock that’s paralyzing me and then it goes over into this state of feeling very down, having no energy and being hopeless and sad.
Every time something like this happens it blocks me for many days/weeks or even months. It increases the feeling of paranoia that I can’t trust anyone and anyone potentially dislikes me. Maybe no one likes me. It’s like people are so evil/cruel online and don’t care how the other person is feeling. I have the strong urge of being liked and if someone is showing the opposite and is mean to me it truly hurts me.
I think my depression comes from people hating on me.
I just wanted to say that you describe the experience of hurt so well. You put it down in phases, and I experience it exactly like that too. It’s like a shock to the system, I’m just stunned at first, then the hurt kicks in. :( I’m sorry you’ve experienced this. I hope you don’t feel deterred from this social platform. There are jerks on the internet but there’s also a decent community here and we want to try to lift each other up when we can. You’ve got this. And it’s okay to take breaks from the internet too.