• Captain Janeway@lemmy.world
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    3 months ago

    I am chronically online. I don’t feel like I have the skills to make new friends as a 30 year old who is on track to have a child this year.

    I never want to socialize. I don’t like being around people. I can’t tell if I’m normal or not. I am a social guy - when I’m in the office or at family events. But it’s the opposite of my idea of a good time. It’s just stressful and tiring.

    My #1 fantasy is that the world is empty and devoid of people. While I’m sure I’d get lonely, I feel like I’d manage.

    I also hate “being perceived”. Not a big fan of being seen. It just stresses me out to know other people are aware of my existence. I think I assume people are judging me and it makes me self conscious. So it’s easier to be alone.

    • Acronychal@lemmy.world
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      3 months ago

      I hate being seen as well. The worst thing is when someone sees me having fun, though. I don’t think it’s a problem to hate socializing at events where there’s not much of anything going on. That’s easy to get sick of.

      As long as there’s some desire to do your hobbies and maybe once in a while do them with people who you’re close with, I see no problem.