Damn, that’s me. I’m a big boy, but i move so silently that i scare the shit outta my wife on the regular when i appear next to her. i also cannot relax if i can’t see all people and exits in the room. More than a one-on-one meeting sucks ass because the more people there are, the less i can keep a person under observation to make sure i’m safe from mood swings.
That’s exhausting and so i just avoid it if possible. In public i am nothing without my noise cancelling headphones; worst experience i can have is a mess hall where everyone speaks because i just can’t stop listening if someone’s voice becomes threatening, so my mind tries to listen to a thousand conversations at once. I’d rather go hungry lol
My father never acknowledged what he did to me before he died; but i’m pretty sure he had similar issues and coped by drinking. I am very relaxed and a very social guy when drunk, so at least he serves as a warning for me to not rely on that crutch. he drank himself to death after everyone fled from his choleric drunkenness, i will not share the same fate.
Yeah, i make a conscious effort to make a small amount of noise so i don’t startle people (assuming i don’t just whack my hand/side on a doorknob and swear loudly anyway lol). I can’t not hear every conversation around me and it annoys people sometimes.
Damn, that’s me. I’m a big boy, but i move so silently that i scare the shit outta my wife on the regular when i appear next to her. i also cannot relax if i can’t see all people and exits in the room. More than a one-on-one meeting sucks ass because the more people there are, the less i can keep a person under observation to make sure i’m safe from mood swings.
That’s exhausting and so i just avoid it if possible. In public i am nothing without my noise cancelling headphones; worst experience i can have is a mess hall where everyone speaks because i just can’t stop listening if someone’s voice becomes threatening, so my mind tries to listen to a thousand conversations at once. I’d rather go hungry lol
My father never acknowledged what he did to me before he died; but i’m pretty sure he had similar issues and coped by drinking. I am very relaxed and a very social guy when drunk, so at least he serves as a warning for me to not rely on that crutch. he drank himself to death after everyone fled from his choleric drunkenness, i will not share the same fate.
Yeah, i make a conscious effort to make a small amount of noise so i don’t startle people (assuming i don’t just whack my hand/side on a doorknob and swear loudly anyway lol). I can’t not hear every conversation around me and it annoys people sometimes.
lol i do that too, mostly by making my footsteps louder, but i can relate to the hitting of doorknobs - mostly with the elbows