I’m really happy to hear about your successes in rewiring yourself to appreciate what you can do yourself, and I don’t mind long replies, I learned how to read before the internet so I won’t be giving those tired lines like “I ain’t readin all that” (after a single paragraph message.) I do appreciate anyone making the effort to share what is going on in their lives and I think we would be a lot better off if we all took more time to share and actually read with interest what other people do with their lives.

I should mention that I don’t actually use THC regularly and particularly not before work meetings! That time was an accident, otherwise I have to be really careful using the stuff because it can make my anxiety much worse or at least make me too sleepy to function.

As for everything else, I’ve been on and off meds of all kinds, not on anything right now but reconsidering because life is HARD yo. I am starting over entirely for roughly the second time, started a new job in a new city with nothing at middle-age trying to compete with younger, more motivated and more confident young hires has been nearly impossible. But I pick up and keep moving. The marathon never ends.